Initially, when I planned for my Gastric Bypass surgery, I spent a lot of my time writing in this blog. I felt, I think, that my blog would help me to be accountable to friends and family members who were keeping an eye on my progress. In a family with divorced parents, I felt this would be an option for keeping everyone kept "up-to-date", and of course my friends have tuned in as well.
After I returned to my room following the Gastric Bypass I learned very quickly about my ovarian cyst. Even before the extent of the cyst was discussed in detail with me, I felt somehow cheated and put in a place where I had to pay attention to something other than my weight loss. I had wanted to revel in the excitement of my "new life". I wanted to blog. I wanted to succeed. I wanted to focus on the emotional and psychological elements of having a gastric bypass. I wanted to exercise. And finally, I wanted to fully commit to the next phases of my weight loss experience without looking back.
One thing that has perplexed me and served as a real source of confusion is the fact that I have had so much difficulty moving on from the cyst. I haven't wanted to blog. I've worried, and dabbled in anger, fear, and even some unproductive emotions while trying to "move on". But its time. I am ready to move on. We've scheduled the date for the upcoming surgery for October 6, 2010.
My goal now is to visualize a healthy and successful move forward, an uneventful surgery with no surprises post-op. If you care to help, please visualize success along with me!
I continue to feel supported by my amazing group of doctors who generously work with me and one another. Many, many thanks to Drs. D; L; W; and my newly added gynecologist, Dr. S!
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